A Beautiful Christmas

Merry Christmas to all of you

Christmas in our lives should be merry right???
It depends on how we enjoy it, on how we spend it, on who are the people joining us in making our christmas as a Merry.

For this year, I attended all the 9 mornings not because for my wish, but because of I just want to attend. Its been 4 years that I haven't completed the 9 mornings, it's not a must but for me it is a celebration.

I was very glad when Christmas is coming. Aside from presents, you are together with your family. Eat together in a table, smiling, talking, laughing, some are giving jokes. I just looking back at my memories, how happy are we spending our Christmas.

I thought my Christmas would end as how did it start. As how I look at the bright sky in the morning and the dark sky that full of twinkling stars as the night comes out. In that day, I slept late...

I had time to open my messenger, mails, Plurks, blog, Facebook and etc. As i have signed in to my messenger, I've greeted everyone a "Merry Christmas"! Some had replied and some did not but I don't care, the important is, I've let them knew they were remembered by me. Someone buzz me. And I replied. I was seriously chatting on him, as he asked to view my webby. I invited him for I know he wants to see me. Later on, after our quite long conversation, I asked him for his webby also. It took me 5 minutes of waiting and unexpectedly, it wasn't his face that I have seen. I was really really pissed off of what happened.

Later on, he chatted me that its already ok. My Internet connection was disconnected and I signed in again. We had short conversation then,at that time, he didn't recognize yet that i got pissed with that stuff. After recognizing it, there he said "SORRY".

I realize, if he's really sorry, why I need to let him know I got pissed with what happen, whether he's the one who did it or not. My Christmas is not that merry already. I didn't let myself focus on that stuff because it's not that important to me as well as the person.

Its been the 2nd time that I got pissed and hearing the word sorry.
Is it worth it to give time to that person who's been maybe enjoying doing stupid stuff to me???

Both of us know, there's going through between us. Before, I can still remember, he did ask me what is my "LIKES" in a guy. I answered him, simply, RESPECT.

With what happen, I can see, respect is not really there.

Do i have to entertain that kind of person??? I gave him time, I respect him after what happened in the first. but now...I DON'T KNOW....


I think, he knows that I'm that cold anymore but I was just doing the right thing myself.

"PREVENTION IS BETTER THAN CURE"

My Christmas was not that affected by him coz' i know, crushes are there waiting...
(hahaha)

I just don't like to act the same way as the past...I just let him feel so confident that I've expected as this stage but it's ok. This is the important, when there is still time to change, do it because regrets live forever!

Someday, he'll be reading my post and I don't give a damn fuckin' shit with what comments would be given.

I'm happy as always , as what I have always told you before.

Just realize what have you done, I know, you are not the one who made that stuff but you should have give a try of preventing what would happen.

Think every moment when you do a move because in a single wrong move, your opponent would be CHECKMATE and nothing will be yours. You could lose.-BadZ