A Beautiful Christmas

Merry Christmas to all of you

Christmas in our lives should be merry right???
It depends on how we enjoy it, on how we spend it, on who are the people joining us in making our christmas as a Merry.

For this year, I attended all the 9 mornings not because for my wish, but because of I just want to attend. Its been 4 years that I haven't completed the 9 mornings, it's not a must but for me it is a celebration.

I was very glad when Christmas is coming. Aside from presents, you are together with your family. Eat together in a table, smiling, talking, laughing, some are giving jokes. I just looking back at my memories, how happy are we spending our Christmas.

I thought my Christmas would end as how did it start. As how I look at the bright sky in the morning and the dark sky that full of twinkling stars as the night comes out. In that day, I slept late...

I had time to open my messenger, mails, Plurks, blog, Facebook and etc. As i have signed in to my messenger, I've greeted everyone a "Merry Christmas"! Some had replied and some did not but I don't care, the important is, I've let them knew they were remembered by me. Someone buzz me. And I replied. I was seriously chatting on him, as he asked to view my webby. I invited him for I know he wants to see me. Later on, after our quite long conversation, I asked him for his webby also. It took me 5 minutes of waiting and unexpectedly, it wasn't his face that I have seen. I was really really pissed off of what happened.

Later on, he chatted me that its already ok. My Internet connection was disconnected and I signed in again. We had short conversation then,at that time, he didn't recognize yet that i got pissed with that stuff. After recognizing it, there he said "SORRY".

I realize, if he's really sorry, why I need to let him know I got pissed with what happen, whether he's the one who did it or not. My Christmas is not that merry already. I didn't let myself focus on that stuff because it's not that important to me as well as the person.

Its been the 2nd time that I got pissed and hearing the word sorry.
Is it worth it to give time to that person who's been maybe enjoying doing stupid stuff to me???

Both of us know, there's going through between us. Before, I can still remember, he did ask me what is my "LIKES" in a guy. I answered him, simply, RESPECT.

With what happen, I can see, respect is not really there.

Do i have to entertain that kind of person??? I gave him time, I respect him after what happened in the first. but now...I DON'T KNOW....


I think, he knows that I'm that cold anymore but I was just doing the right thing myself.

"PREVENTION IS BETTER THAN CURE"

My Christmas was not that affected by him coz' i know, crushes are there waiting...
(hahaha)

I just don't like to act the same way as the past...I just let him feel so confident that I've expected as this stage but it's ok. This is the important, when there is still time to change, do it because regrets live forever!

Someday, he'll be reading my post and I don't give a damn fuckin' shit with what comments would be given.

I'm happy as always , as what I have always told you before.

Just realize what have you done, I know, you are not the one who made that stuff but you should have give a try of preventing what would happen.

Think every moment when you do a move because in a single wrong move, your opponent would be CHECKMATE and nothing will be yours. You could lose.-BadZ

I <3 L I F E

Yesterday, I was about to leave the dreamland but someone showed up ,unexpectedly. I've noticed his shirt was familiar to me. It's color black and there is a print.
I was surprised when I look at his bottom wear, a cargo short and a Nike shoes for hip-hop dancers. It was so funny that he wore like that, i can't really imagined because as the time we see each other, he don't wore cargo shorts.

Unluckily, my aunt woke me up because I need to prepare for my 7:30am class already. I don't have any choice but I need to stand not to be late.

I have a nice day at that time, but when I'm prepared to go to school, I was pissed off because I was not able to go to school at before 7:30. I chose not to VERY late because it is very shameful already, so I went to school before my next class.

At that day, it didn't end a bad day rather, it ended with a smile. My nice day turned to a SMILEY day.

I feel very comfortable being with you. I've encountered to be annoyed by the attitude that you're showing but by just a glimpse coming from you, it fades always. I'm glad that you're just what you are because it just shows that you don't like to have regrets at any time. I appreciate who are good to me, but I love people who are really true in front and behind me.

If you'll be asking now the question you wanna ask, it depends if you have brought the answer of my sign. I'm not so dependent into signs but I just wanna make sure that I can say "this is the right time". I've been praying everyday about that and hoping it would come because I'm already happy in it.

There are times when I think of you that the world seems GREAT meeting a person like you. Hanging-out with you, spending time with you and be with you as late as possible. (haha) but Honestly, I'm very "OK" when I'm am with you even we're in the most boring place in the world. As long as I am with you, I am OK.

I don't want to make things fast. I want it slowly, no pressures. Isn't it good? "SLOWLY BUT SURELY" I just want to happen things, in a smoothly. It's like a program in the computer, when you programmed quickly without thinking, we can't assure that it would give your expected program and output. In this situation, we need to think, Think hundred times but not thinking forever.

I know how you felt when there are times when you try to call me but I don't answer.
I know it's sad but honestly sometimes, I just don't feel to talk to you.
I know it's quite weird but I just want not to be used to it because maybe, someday I will keep on craving that like a Coffee Crumble Ice Cream.
I don't want to feel that way. It's just I Don't really really WANT but to tell you honestly, I wanna hear your voice always.

Now, you'll be arriving soon and surely, we'll see each other again.
and let's see what will happen...
Go with the flow.
No expectations, No pressures...
Just be the way you are
And I'll not be a far...

There are times when I just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times when I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold night
You're always on my mind
By the time i wake up in the early morning
Until I'll be going to dreamland
I wanna see you there everyday as I go there as my daily routine
Even now, you're a million miles away
You've been always running in my mind.
Always wear a smile
and be HAPPY
coz' i love the way you smile.

"We're happy to see the person we want to see
We are glad to see the person we want to be with
and ME
I love the person WHO i want to be with & WHO love the person I want to be with"-BadZ